False Hope: I Won’t Be Testing Any Time Soon, After All
Last evening, after I discovered the spotting, I debated whether to get out the Diva Cup or not. There is a part of me that is very superstitious; and I thought that if I avoided using any form of feminine protection it would somehow make my wish come true and I would be pregnant and this would be harmless spotting.
In the end, my practical side won out, and I did use my Diva Cup.
Before bed, there was some blood, but not much and I was able to convince myself that it could still just be harmless spotting.
This morning, I had to face the fact that whether or not we had succeeded in conceiving this cycle, I am definitely not pregnant now.
I’m going to count yesterday as Day One of the current cycle. That means my period came five days later than anticipated and puts the last cycle at 34 days. I hope my body isn’t up to its old tricks. I was quite enjoying having relatively regular cycles.







Susan Ovington
Hugs to you Erin.
ErinM
Thanks Susan, I appreciate your support.
Life of K
That’s tough and annoying and so many things. I’m sorry to hear.
ErinM
Yeah, it is. I’m okay, though.
Is that my mantra? “I’m okay.”
Mom
I agree with Life of K.
And Susan.
Love Mom
ErinM
Thanks, Mom.